Okay, I know that you know what a tail is so I'm not getting into defining it. We also know that animals, birds & humans have tails. Oh wait, did I just say humans have tails? Of course! of course we have tails. The tail bone at the end of our spine which is curved inwards unlike animals blah blah blah... 'This is not a science or biology class to talk about bones and tails' is that what you just thought by any chance? Well, if I were in your place, I would have thought that. So, before you wonder why this tail nonsense here, let me tell you something...
Do you know about the favorite tail concept? Are you aware of 'your' favorite tail? Well, a tail is something that comes with us or behind us where ever we go just like that cute little pug in 'Hutch' ad (if you remember the ad, pup & their tag line 'where ever you go, our network follows you'). To keep it simple, in our Indian or local slang a tail is anything & everything that comes along where ever we go (not the biological one). This tail could be your sibling or friend who just wants to come along even if you are going out on a date. There are some more tails we have, like, our mobile, wallet, shades, a comb, tissues, deos for some, lip-balm to some like me, lucky charms, and many more. To me, my lip-balm, sling bag, my red water bottle, scarf, a pack of tissues & kajal are my tails. But yeah, these are not my favorite tales.
Then what? What is my favorite tail? What is yours? See, favorite tail is something that we carry EVERYWHERE. We definitely don't carry the above listed things everywhere, to almost all the places but not everywhere. Do you? I don't! not to my bed, a restroom, to the general store at the end of my lane, from one room to another in my home and a few more places. What is that we carry along? What is that thing which is increasing your load, shadowing you in crowds & alone places? Most importantly, why has it become your favorite tail?
There was a time when my past, my hurts, some people in my thoughts, all that I couldn't do, all that I wanted, trust breaks, heart breaks, betrayals, simple issues of day to day life, people whom I was missing, a few things that were unsaid, some guilt, repentance, a few regrets, anger, frustration, tears were my favorite tails. The list was probably longer. One from that list was always on my mind, kept my heart heavy and added up to my baggage and were being my favorite tails 24*7, 365*many years! They were there even when I was asleep. The tails kept increasing and they grew longer & thicker consuming all my energy to drag them where ever I go. I felt troubled, helpless, lost, heavy, low, dead... had no idea what to do, how to get rid of all that.
I started seeing and observing the length, thickness & growth pattern of my tails. One fine day, I was amazed to see something. I was astonished. Seeing that I thought, "is it this small & thin?" Oh yeah, though the end or tip of my tails where thick & heavy, their roots, the beginnings were tiny, weak, thin & delicate because each of these tails started just with a thought or a feeling. Something that I thought or felt some hours, days, weeks, months & years back. Life & people in the present aren't the same but mentally I was fixated at something happened some time back.
It wasn't easy to let them go but wasn't impossible too. Though it took some time, it was simple. All I had to do was, take the knife of my strength & determination, shred them off from my mind, my life and bid a farewell to them & say, Its OK buddy, I'm fine. I'm happy without you. You need not come back to me (to the tails, OK?) and embrace the new life, people & of course the new me. Slowly, slowly, one by one, some baby steps and here I'm. Now with some amazing, lightweight, advanced & new in the market kind (sorry, if I sound like selling a latest mobile or gadget? please ignore if I do :P) favorite tails.The tails that I now have are my happiness, peace, joy, freedom within myself, my smile & of course, a new flavor of lip-balm!
That's my tale of my tails, what is yours? What are those you wanna shred away & what are those you wanna take along & flaunt? When I could, you too can, my friend! All you have to do is, just sharpen up your knife, detach them one by one and let yourself free. Why carry so much unwanted stuff along leaving behind the important ones. The beautiful heart & amazing mind that you have also have a weight limit so keep it light. Why to trouble our self some more? Why to choose that strain? Why not start it right away & live again? You can make it happen, its just a thought away because you know life is short & we live only once.
#WLOO
